Oops-a-daisy

OK so apparently blogging everyday isn't going to work out... but I can try for at least one a week to start out. Anyway here is what's been going on lately, this maybe considered a "rant" but you can read it or not.

Last Saturday was my birthday, YAY the big 23...OK I'm not old yet but looking at where I'm at in my life I'm decently far behind for where I wanted to be. The good news about the birthday was that the Boyfriend gave me an amazing present (I received the Bamboo Fun Wacom tablet) and took me to the apple orchard, and then we got all dressed up and took me to Chianti Grill (never been there before) for some amazing food! This weekend I'm headed out to Lake Benton, MN to do some Pheasant hunting with my family (there's about 15 of us going). I'm the only girl that goes and I've been going for about 3 years now and have not shot a Pheasant yet but have technically only shot at one once :) so I'm still sitting pretty good I think.


OK enough of that, on to the rant..

THE BAD
I'm 23, I'm still going to school (working towards my 4 degrees, maybe 5 haven't decided yet), I still live at home with my parents, I work 30 hours a week doing retail (NOT my dream job) and am in pretty bad debt :( so I don't have any money saved up because I'm trying to pay my bills off but can't due to the fact that I work retail and don't make very much money. So I really feel like I'm getting no where in life because I work so much it's really hard to focus on the average 16 credits of school I try and take a semester to graduate sooner (which I actually had to drop a 3 credit class because I'm so terribly behind in my homework in my classes there was no way I was going to be able to do it all, which doesn't make me feel any less like a failure).

THE GOOD
I have an amazing family that supports me and is always there to help and I have an amazing Boyfriend who is completely understanding and always willing to help whenever possible and his family is very supportive as well.

ONE OF THE PROBLEMS
I want to become more active in my future job industry. I have joined several organizations and would LOVE to attend their events but finding time around 6 classes + homework (16 credits) and working 30 hours a week it's really not that possible. I also want to become more active on twitter and blogging and volunteering to make some websites in the community to get my name out there but again there is no time. It's hard to build a portfolio to show at internships when I don't have time to work on anything or feel like I'm really putting together quality work to show what I really know how to do. It's aggravating and I wish I could catch a break somewhere. There is really no good option for what to do, I can't just not work I have debt to pay off and the bills don't stop coming when the pay checks stop coming, if I put off school to make money that really doesn't put me in a good spot either.

I guess this is just the unfortunate paths we accidentally take during life. But if it wasn't for my family, the boyfriend, and his family I'm not quite sure where I would be at this point in time but I can guarantee it would most likely be worse.