Ok so after a long and interesting weekend of hunting and other events that happened here is where I'm at.
Hunting was lots of fun, I love spending time with my dad and my uncles and being outdoors especially watching the dogs work the fields. I didn't shoot anything but no biggy to me I still love going. I missed the boyfriend and his family and my mom a lot though but I got to see them all on Sunday when I got back.
Had to go in early Monday morning for a meeting with the boss but all is well, found out that they had to cut my hours for the week because I was running into becoming a full time employee which can't happen and I need to work a lot in the next couple weeks so I'm fine with it. I'll have one small paycheck for a week but I think I can survive.
Anyway went to class this morning and spent most of it trying to catch up on the 500+ blog posts I had to read which totally sent me into a wedding a party planning kick that has my mind going in every direction right now. Granted I probably won't have any parties untill I get my own place (or the boyfriend and I get our own place) and I know I won't be planning a wedding untill I get proposed to someday. But I totally love the outdoor vintage/modern weddings especially any of them that include the use of mason jars, ball jars, or milk bottles!!! AMAZING!! I can't wait to plan my wedding someday.... ****dreaming****
The other thought is I think I'm going to be in school forever, why I want to do pretty much everything is beyond me. I don't even really like school but I think my thought is no one will ever let me do something unless I have something to prove I can do it. For instance... I'm currently in 4 degrees Electronic Publishing, Graphic Design, Multimedia/Web Design, and Software development. But I always find something else I want to do or add to my education for instance marketing, I would LOVE to take all the marketing classes, also interior design and event planning. Maybe someday I will have a chance ****dreaming****
So those are my thoughts for today... we will wait and see what tomorrow or the rest of the week brings.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Oops-a-daisy
OK so apparently blogging everyday isn't going to work out... but I can try for at least one a week to start out. Anyway here is what's been going on lately, this maybe considered a "rant" but you can read it or not.
Last Saturday was my birthday, YAY the big 23...OK I'm not old yet but looking at where I'm at in my life I'm decently far behind for where I wanted to be. The good news about the birthday was that the Boyfriend gave me an amazing present (I received the Bamboo Fun Wacom tablet) and took me to the apple orchard, and then we got all dressed up and took me to Chianti Grill (never been there before) for some amazing food! This weekend I'm headed out to Lake Benton, MN to do some Pheasant hunting with my family (there's about 15 of us going). I'm the only girl that goes and I've been going for about 3 years now and have not shot a Pheasant yet but have technically only shot at one once :) so I'm still sitting pretty good I think.
OK enough of that, on to the rant..
THE BAD
I'm 23, I'm still going to school (working towards my 4 degrees, maybe 5 haven't decided yet), I still live at home with my parents, I work 30 hours a week doing retail (NOT my dream job) and am in pretty bad debt :( so I don't have any money saved up because I'm trying to pay my bills off but can't due to the fact that I work retail and don't make very much money. So I really feel like I'm getting no where in life because I work so much it's really hard to focus on the average 16 credits of school I try and take a semester to graduate sooner (which I actually had to drop a 3 credit class because I'm so terribly behind in my homework in my classes there was no way I was going to be able to do it all, which doesn't make me feel any less like a failure).
THE GOOD
I have an amazing family that supports me and is always there to help and I have an amazing Boyfriend who is completely understanding and always willing to help whenever possible and his family is very supportive as well.
ONE OF THE PROBLEMS
I want to become more active in my future job industry. I have joined several organizations and would LOVE to attend their events but finding time around 6 classes + homework (16 credits) and working 30 hours a week it's really not that possible. I also want to become more active on twitter and blogging and volunteering to make some websites in the community to get my name out there but again there is no time. It's hard to build a portfolio to show at internships when I don't have time to work on anything or feel like I'm really putting together quality work to show what I really know how to do. It's aggravating and I wish I could catch a break somewhere. There is really no good option for what to do, I can't just not work I have debt to pay off and the bills don't stop coming when the pay checks stop coming, if I put off school to make money that really doesn't put me in a good spot either.
I guess this is just the unfortunate paths we accidentally take during life. But if it wasn't for my family, the boyfriend, and his family I'm not quite sure where I would be at this point in time but I can guarantee it would most likely be worse.
Last Saturday was my birthday, YAY the big 23...OK I'm not old yet but looking at where I'm at in my life I'm decently far behind for where I wanted to be. The good news about the birthday was that the Boyfriend gave me an amazing present (I received the Bamboo Fun Wacom tablet) and took me to the apple orchard, and then we got all dressed up and took me to Chianti Grill (never been there before) for some amazing food! This weekend I'm headed out to Lake Benton, MN to do some Pheasant hunting with my family (there's about 15 of us going). I'm the only girl that goes and I've been going for about 3 years now and have not shot a Pheasant yet but have technically only shot at one once :) so I'm still sitting pretty good I think.
OK enough of that, on to the rant..
THE BAD
I'm 23, I'm still going to school (working towards my 4 degrees, maybe 5 haven't decided yet), I still live at home with my parents, I work 30 hours a week doing retail (NOT my dream job) and am in pretty bad debt :( so I don't have any money saved up because I'm trying to pay my bills off but can't due to the fact that I work retail and don't make very much money. So I really feel like I'm getting no where in life because I work so much it's really hard to focus on the average 16 credits of school I try and take a semester to graduate sooner (which I actually had to drop a 3 credit class because I'm so terribly behind in my homework in my classes there was no way I was going to be able to do it all, which doesn't make me feel any less like a failure).
THE GOOD
I have an amazing family that supports me and is always there to help and I have an amazing Boyfriend who is completely understanding and always willing to help whenever possible and his family is very supportive as well.
ONE OF THE PROBLEMS
I want to become more active in my future job industry. I have joined several organizations and would LOVE to attend their events but finding time around 6 classes + homework (16 credits) and working 30 hours a week it's really not that possible. I also want to become more active on twitter and blogging and volunteering to make some websites in the community to get my name out there but again there is no time. It's hard to build a portfolio to show at internships when I don't have time to work on anything or feel like I'm really putting together quality work to show what I really know how to do. It's aggravating and I wish I could catch a break somewhere. There is really no good option for what to do, I can't just not work I have debt to pay off and the bills don't stop coming when the pay checks stop coming, if I put off school to make money that really doesn't put me in a good spot either.
I guess this is just the unfortunate paths we accidentally take during life. But if it wasn't for my family, the boyfriend, and his family I'm not quite sure where I would be at this point in time but I can guarantee it would most likely be worse.
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